Finding it difficult to blog

Everyday I kick myself for not blogging and I can’t tell you why I don’t. I have this complete and utter desire to blog all the time about things that mean a lot to me, or things i find interesting or fun but there is this massive wall.

Partly I think it is due to that fact I am a very ‘nothing will ever be good enough’ person. I find it incredibly difficult to let things go because I never feel like things I create or do are good enough. I never feel like things I do represent the real me? I know it sounds weird and stupid but unless you are similar to me in that sense I guess you’ll find it difficult to understand.

Am I also the only person who spend a lot of time thinking everyone else is doing it ‘right’ and I am the only one doing it wrong? ergh, sorry this is such a rambley blog but I just want think I need to put this down in words so I understand it better myself than having things jumbled up in my head where I usually keep everything in a mess.

Maybe it is an age thing and at the baby age of 22 I have’t quite worked myself out? or maybe I have worked myself out and this is it? a rambley person who always has about 2 million thoughts rushing through her mind and not the capability to convey them in a productive or meaningful way? That was one of the goals of starting a blog, but to date nothings improved.

This blog post has been a product of an evening reading and watching other blog posts and video blogs from people around the glob, writing and talking about a series of different topics and myself laying on my bed wondering why I can’t write or talk like that? I’ve lost track of the amount of blogs I’ve written and deleted because rereading them for the 600 time I’ve decided it cant go out. Hell, I closed two tabs about 20 mins ago, both of which had complete blog posts on. One was on difference in men and womens approach to relationships and the other on some recent research conducted by Simon Baron-Cohen. Why did I delete them? I am not sure. Was I sad to see 1200 words gone in the blink of an eye, no.

Hmmmm, I hope i get better at this stuff, I really would like to be someone people read the words of and feel inspired.

For the time being, Much love.

Joanna x

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13 thoughts on “Finding it difficult to blog

  1. Don’t put pressure on to you, Joanna!
    I understand you, sometimes I think why am I writing this or that and that this blogpost is just stupid and unnecessary. But you know what? I startet to not overthink it and just write the things that came to my mind that moment I wrote them – that’s one reason I created my blog.
    Annemarie x

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    • Thank you annemarie, feel like I’m improving slowly now. Like you said just got to not overthink! And definitely need to
      Stop comparing myself to other bloggers. Always nice to know you’re not the only one:) x

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  2. Dear Joanna,

    All I can say about this bright and beautifully vulnerable post is, we are all on this incredible journey and we continue to learn and grow. I gained a great part of my wisdom in my 50s and 60s and I’m sure there is much more to come.

    What I know for sure is that life is full of light and darkness. In the midst of the dark, we often sigh, lament or curse it, but it is through the darkness that we gain the light. My darkest hours have made me the person I am.

    I don’t thing you should worry one snap about your blogging. It’s your willingness to write that puts you out there and when you add your willingness to be vulnerable, you make an enormous difference in the lives of those fortunate enough to read your thoughts.

    We have an old joke in America; The tourist asks the New Yorker, “How do I get to Carnegie Hall?” New Yorker, “Practice, practice, practice.” You will get better and better with practice, and remember, we are all just practicing.

    Warmly from America,

    Sue Ellen

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  3. Hi Joanna,
    I’m new to blogging and completely relate to this post. I would love to be able to write a post most days but I quite often get an idea and then think “Nobody will want to read that” and then leave it until I feel more inspired. I keep telling myself I should just write whatever comes to mind – at least I’m being consistent. I’m going to try my best to write whenever I can and not compare myself to other bloggers. We all have our own special something. It might just take some of us a bit longer to find our swing than others! I really like your blog btw! Happy blogging πŸ™‚ x

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  4. Hi. Thank you so much for liking my post at NedSpeak. Of course I came over to see who you are and happened upon this post. I’ll tell you this much, it’s not because you’re young. I’m 57 and it took me over 6 hours to complete that Valentine’s Day post you liked. I too am a perfectionist, but I know and understand, there is no such thing as perfection. In blogging, there is only communication. Did you communicate your primary thought or not. If not revise. If your post gets your point across, post. If you never post it, you *never* get your point out there. Create a format that works for you. If you type freestyle, it’s like being in a forest with no path. By blog posts almost always have the same layout. A very basic format might be: state your point plainly, make your point memorable by talking about it with examples and why you support it or don’t support it, then restate your point along with a minor anecdote or joke. Once you have a predefined format, you have a path. Now all you have to do is walk! Keep blogging, my friend, you’ll find yourself.

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  5. Don’t beat yourself up about it. If it comes to you, it comes to you, if it doesn’t it doesn’t.

    This is your blog, not your readers, and the only expectations you should have are of your aspirations in life and nothing else. Heck I’m 25 and I have no clue where I want to be in life, but nobody has any expectations of me. If you feel one day that you need to have a ramble, then go hell for bells and rant those rambles out! Make your blog your own πŸ™‚

    Lauren x

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  6. I read a good tip on heynataliejean’s blog once (the blogger we all want to be, hell the woman, that for some reason, we all want to be), which was to set up your blog as private initially and then just blog like crazy, as many posts as you can muster, then edit edit edit, curate your work and when you’re happy with what you’ve got go live. A great piece of advise I thought, not that you need to do this – you’ve got a great little blog coming along. I think a lot of blog posts spend a substantial amount of time as drafts, which undergo ALOT of editing, so don’t beat yourself up about it all. It just takes time.

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  7. Hi Joanna, I feel the same way too although I have just started blogging and my site has a few articles on it. I feel like stopping because I don’t think I make any sense at all! When I saw your blog, I thought it was really an informative one, so don’t worry you are doing well. πŸ˜‰ Keep on going πŸ˜‰

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  8. I hope you feel differently about it now but honestly if you have written something passionately who is to say it’s not good enough? There is no standard but the one you set yourself so if you think you have done yourself justice then really who actually cares about anyone else because normally people seem to like others that just do what they feel because it’s more natural. And never compare yourself or your blog to other people because there are so many different ones nowadays, it’s all about your own journey and thoughts so just keep doing you!

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